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Sometimes i wish i wasn't me, but rather, something else.

Those keeping the score at home and specially my best buds around the net probably know what i wish i was sometimes, i often muse why i feel like that, why i wish i was not me.

Over the time i have been musing about this i have rationalized several possible reasons why i feel that and, like the big dumb idiot i am, i neglected to realize the most obvious reason, because it is something i have accepted about myself long ago that i often ignore it.

I am not a pleasant person. This is fact.

I am not pleasant to be around, i am not pleasant to talk to and i am not pleasant to socialize with, even in the net, where the screen that separate us might help relieve how unpleasant i can be, once you get to know me enough you realize im a terribly difficult person and terrible in general.

Because of just how i am everybody will eventually will see me as an "ogre", some people will fare better with handling me than others, it's specially difficult for other emotional people like me to handle me, two of a kind often have conflict, but in any case, my own incompetence at the most basic social interactions will cause people to be mad at me, and this in turn saddens me greatly. Because it's always my fault. And i know it, yet it still hurts everytime.

It pains me that i barely have managed to change how i am, i feel like im a failure of a person who at this point can't be fixed and that sometimes gets me really down (god bless my short nattention span and ability to be entertained by anything tho), it's a feeling i don't wish upon anybody.

And i realized, may be that's why i feel it? Wanting to not be me? Wanting to be that which i sometimes want to be? Is it because i just want to be someone who is universally loved instead of this unpleasant mess of a human being?

I don't know, but it feels so...on the right track to understanding.

But i can't be anything else, i only know how to be me. It's all i do.

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